Name of Hospital: Lindner Center of HOPE
City, State/Province, Country: Mason, Ohio, USA
Number of Stars: 1.5
Comment: it was absolutely terrible. i was hospitalised for being suicidal, and i was totally willing and honestly excited about being hospitalised until i got there. they forced everyone to wear scrubs until we earned our clothes, and being autistic, the texture of the scrubs made it nearly impossible for me to do anything. it was freezing cold in there 24/7, but we were allowed to have hoodies/coats with the strings taken out.
the groups were completely useless, just a general meet and greet twice a day where we went over the rules, useless rec therapy that made no sense whatsoever, “school” where we did schoolwork (if we had any), and religion groups (the best way i can describe it, it was basically a guy talking about religion, not trying to convert us or anything).
the staff treated me terribly. i have PTSD symptoms from my stay there, including flashbacks and panic attacks when i start driving down the road to there. the radio was on 24/7, and usually if you said a song triggered you they would turn it off, but once i was crying and having a panic attack and nearly screaming because a really triggering song came on and one of the staff laughed at me. the staff didn’t listen to me at all, they only listened to my parents and ended up nearly pushing me to suicide again.
the outdoor part was actually nice, about the size of a regular classroom but with lots of plants and flowers and a concrete trail. the staff refused me my chest binder for half a day once until i just started keeping it in my room, which was against the rules but no one stopped me. i spent my nights there crying, hallucinating, and having panic attacks. there was a woman there, in the adolescent ward, who was 18 and had overdosed and she was repeatedly trying to get admitted to the adult ward but they wouldn’t. this is one of the places that i’m scared to stim at because i don’t want to get yelled at. at the time i was there, i was on birth control and i took my pills at 10pm every night. they made me take my pills at 8pm, which made me have panic attacks. they also refused to give me any sleeping medicine, and eventually i was just awake all night.
tl;dr: it was terrible, the staff were ableist, nothing there helped me at all.
Type of program (i.e. day program, inpatient): inpatient
Any other identities/marginalizations (i.e. race/gender/sexuality) that could have influenced your stay?: AFAB, nonbinary, psychotic, PTSD, thirteen years old, gay