Name of Hospital: Erie County Medical Center
City, State/Province, Country: Buffalo, New York, USA
Number of Stars: 2
Comment: It was terrible. They didn’t help me at all, just prevented me from killing myself. They arguably made it worse since I was treated like a prisoner for a week; punished for my depression and made to feel terrible about my suicidal state. I wasn’t allowed any alone time which enhanced how horrible I was feeling since I had no privacy.
I was anorexic at the time and no one attempted to try and get me to eat so I starved myself and no one cared. I lost about 5 lbs that week, dropping me to 100 lbs. Other patients were violent and threatening, and the only time nurses stepped in was when someone’s immediate safety was threatened. No type of stimulation was offered to us since they barely trusted us with pencils or crayons, so i was forced to fixate on my suicidal thoughts and feelings.
Once more, no one cared, but instead threatened to take away my books unless I was around those that made me feel miserable and scared. I was made to partake in group exercises which included me opening up about myself to people I hated without my consent, since we were forced to be present or else we would stay there longer. People would barge in on us during the night with flashlights, waking us up, just to leave right away. I woke up a few times to someone watching me and couldn’t say anything about it.
Shortly after I left I tried to kill myself because all they did was force me to bear my pain for much longer than I could, and made me feel afraid to speak up since I was treated so poorly for asking to be helped. I hope others never experience what I did.
Type of program (i.e. day program, inpatient): inpatient
Any other identities/marginalizations (i.e. race/gender/sexuality) that could have influenced your stay?: Not really. I’m a cis presenting white woman.