Name of Hospital: Hotel Dieu Grace (Oulette Campus)
City, State/Province, Country: Windsor, Ontario, Canada
Number of Stars: 2
Comment: Tw: suicide
I was admitted in 2011 after a suicide attempt. The terrible experience begun with the paramedic in the ambulance telling me that I would have gone to hell if the attempt was successful and asking why I didn’t believe in god. I vaguely remember a medical examination without being told much about my condition and then waking up in a cold room with a bright light on 24/7, a mattress on the floor and walls that didn’t have corners. No one came to talk to me or tell me why I was there or how long I would be in there. I was given a high dose of anti-psychotics even though I have never been diagnosed with any form of psychosis.
They transferred me to the main floor. I talked to a social worker for about 30 minutes who basically just asked me why I did it but didn’t provide any support. That was the last time I spoke with anyone aside from the nurses giving me pills and I was in there for 3 weeks. No therapy, no one asking if I was okay, just lots of medication and TV and listening to the sounds of other patients screams. There were no therapy programs aside from a very disorganized “craft room” and workout videos from the 80s with no space or equipment to work out.
I would get in trouble for walking up and down the halls trying to move my body. We weren’t allowed outside and I didn’t have a breath of fresh air in 3 weeks. My family tried to call but the patients answered the phones for whatever reason and they always told my family they didn’t know my name and I was not there. Nothing about this place was therapeutic.
Any time after that when I had a breakdown I refused to go to the hospital because I knew that would make me worse than how I felt before. Not that it mattered because even when I was sent to the hospital involuntarily they made me sit in emerg for 16+ hours completely alone without anyone offering food, water or asking if I was okay or telling me when I might be seen.
When I was finally seen I saw the psychiatrist tell a lady who said she would kill herself as soon as she left that she had to leave because there was no room. He not only told me that I have to leave but he ASKED ME what kind of meds I wanted and gave me a prescription for a new medication that I suggested after talking to me for 5 minutes, not asking about any history, or other meds I might be taking. Completely cold and no compassion for anyone’s suffering.
TL/DR: over medicating/no compassion/no therapy/programs/no communication with the patients/no exercise or fresh air/patients answer phones
Type of program (i.e. day program, inpatient): Inpatient
Any other identities/marginalizations (i.e. race/gender/sexuality) that could have influenced your stay?: Atheist, female, bisexual
Year(s) : 2011/2012/2013